Monday, October 26, 2009 { 11:37 AM }


I spend this moment of time to write about my feelings right now.
its have been so long i never let my emotional out of myself. maybe this is the time.
Some people might be wondering why i am out meeting new friends and blind date. Cos my life is simply don't know what im doing right now. maybe i need someone that i can rely on who can be there for me, fully understand my needs. Its not love what i need now. is just someone whom i can rely and have a cold shoulder. cos people do came and go. but i always feel that people will always go and wont stay with me when i do need them. some are plain jealous with what i did all along.i just trying my best to stick to only one. but i cant stop people who wanna make friendship with me.

Relationship? Relationship? Relationship?
i can get over to my past relationship.
cos i have done all my best to make that particular happy.
but sadly the ending have to be end that fast with a blink of an eyes.
im scare to face another relationship. and please. don't waste you guys time
confessing to me. cos im ain't changing myself and to be in relationship.
unless she proven me that she the best of me. and im happy to be part of her life.
sometimes,something beautiful won't bring the relationship to the greatest height.
every time i walk by the street.
memories is here and there.
sometimes when i listen to my ipod...
i feel like crying at the corner.
and let everything out of me.
sometimes i feel how beautiful relationship are from people smile and laughter.
i miss holding hands.
i miss cuddling.
i miss hugging.
and i miss the kiss on the forehead.

i might nobody to people eyes.
but im happy to the greatest mum who support me all along with my love life.
when u treat people nice, people might take advantage over you.

maybe if i have a crush right now.
only me who know it.
cos im into someone right now.
someone so special. seem so caring. and simply sweet to me.
even though i don't meet her that often.
i just can feel that she right beside me whispering to me.
every message that she send to me.
bring me such laughter.
she like my report strength for everything.
family personal problem.
i would share it with her.
let you judge me yourself.


PS: i feel secure to be with you.

Labels: CRUSH

Wednesday, September 30, 2009 { 10:09 PM }

I failed my test. OMG! ):
need to study back all the steps that have taught by them.
Tomorrow tuition again.
afternoon till evening.
i have been doing this almost everyday.
just to PASS my exam as soon as possible.
what a crucial day i have. (;
Sorry guys if have been away or missing in action.
i tried my best to tag along with you guys.
Not now..
but sooner or later.. (;

This post is totally random.
no one knows who am into now.
lets everything keep it between myself.
cos its just a secret lover for me.
i found someone now.
someone who i already fall...
from the very start i saw her.
i don't know if i could win her heart in future.
cos im scare to fall in another relationship...
since my past relationship is totally terribly and horrible.
so i don't dare to commit another one.
She is someone so special to me.
first time, i glance into her....
i start to like her.
just a like not more than that.
but its impossible for me to be with her.
i wish that i could know her a little better as time goes by.
have been looking forward into her.

Maybe its too early for me to confess what i feel about her.
so i maintain myself and being myself by knowing her.
even there's many optical i need go through.
i must be strong cos love do need to sacrificed.
Lets the motion follow the moment by itself.



PS: You are the one of the kind

Labels: CRUSH