Monday, October 26, 2009 { 11:37 AM }


I spend this moment of time to write about my feelings right now.
its have been so long i never let my emotional out of myself. maybe this is the time.
Some people might be wondering why i am out meeting new friends and blind date. Cos my life is simply don't know what im doing right now. maybe i need someone that i can rely on who can be there for me, fully understand my needs. Its not love what i need now. is just someone whom i can rely and have a cold shoulder. cos people do came and go. but i always feel that people will always go and wont stay with me when i do need them. some are plain jealous with what i did all along.i just trying my best to stick to only one. but i cant stop people who wanna make friendship with me.

Relationship? Relationship? Relationship?
i can get over to my past relationship.
cos i have done all my best to make that particular happy.
but sadly the ending have to be end that fast with a blink of an eyes.
im scare to face another relationship. and please. don't waste you guys time
confessing to me. cos im ain't changing myself and to be in relationship.
unless she proven me that she the best of me. and im happy to be part of her life.
sometimes,something beautiful won't bring the relationship to the greatest height.
every time i walk by the street.
memories is here and there.
sometimes when i listen to my ipod...
i feel like crying at the corner.
and let everything out of me.
sometimes i feel how beautiful relationship are from people smile and laughter.
i miss holding hands.
i miss cuddling.
i miss hugging.
and i miss the kiss on the forehead.

i might nobody to people eyes.
but im happy to the greatest mum who support me all along with my love life.
when u treat people nice, people might take advantage over you.

maybe if i have a crush right now.
only me who know it.
cos im into someone right now.
someone so special. seem so caring. and simply sweet to me.
even though i don't meet her that often.
i just can feel that she right beside me whispering to me.
every message that she send to me.
bring me such laughter.
she like my report strength for everything.
family personal problem.
i would share it with her.
let you judge me yourself.


PS: i feel secure to be with you.

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