Saturday, October 31, 2009
{ 5:57 AM }
Hello People.
life have be so great for me now.
i enjoy my precious time to the fullest.
i don't mind being alone out there..or
going out alone. but at least i enjoy time perfectly.
just do something fun and enjoy my time with my happy pills.
they are my pillar and soul of my life. without them. my life would be empty without laughing and a smile on my faces.
i have enough! since my last relationship.
i got those blames and full of arguments, due to misunderstanding to each other.
and am OUT of patience and being honest with my relationship.
cos for me....
girls doesn't seem to appreciate what is provided for them.
CARE! LOVE! CHERISH! ( NONE SECURE )
maybe am not that perfect lover or such a romantic type of guy.
in their eyes....
what i can do is.... being myself and accept me, for who i am.
im firdaus hassan. who is kind heart ed and always being sincere...
enough to showed my love to my love ones. maybe they are not my fate to be together. maybe as time goes by i will find my suitable and compatible girl out there. ( still waiting )
Yea! truly deep inside me.... who doesn't wants beautiful relationship. even i do want it. and sometimes i feel so jealous or feel so left out,watching or seeing people out there happily with they couple or girlfriend. i miss having a girlfriend. but right now, i'm not into anyone. even anyone whom am close with or even friend with right now. All are the same to me. if that's the best. that will be the best position i wanna be. so i can't label or elaborate where she is standing right now in my life.
Right now... my bestfriend are happily falling in LOVE with someone.
and im totally happy to see he smile again.
enjoying with his wanna be girlfriend. i guess.
but someone i know right now. (:
seem hard to mention. let me keep this secret between myself.
everyone is stopping me from being friend with her.
every time i see her face, she is the most sincere girl who wanna be my friend.
not more not less. just to get it clear to all of you.
sometimes i don't even know how to repay people kindness.
i know i can't repay them with money or even diamond that i could affordable to buy it at some jewelry shop in the mall. but what i afford is see them the glorious smile to their faces.
sometimes i don't even understand why people wanna break the happiness that i've been working at. for ones, let me fly free to have does happiness i wanna all this while.
i just feel that i rather die right now then suffering,what im going through all this while. i apologized if i did something that might hurts people feelings out there.
im confuse. im confuse. im confuse.
confuse with my path to where im going through right now.
i wish SOMEONE could came into my life,
and guide me. cos im currently lost my way.
it have been so long i have not been sitting to someone and let everything out what i feel right now. sometimes i lay back in my room. and give myself 5 mins about my day. what i've been doing today. keep thinking and thinking. if i did something wrong or hurts people feelings to the people all surround me. if i did, im sorry.
Someone gave me bubble gum today!
every steps i walk....
i will busy chewing my gums....
and texting you at the same time...
just wanna let you know that im here keep thinking about you.
even you are enjoying life to the fullest.
maybe for the time being....
i will be missing in action...
due to, i need my own personal time on my own.
is time to rest my mind and get myself out of social the network for a moment.
So to the people out there, if you can't reach me.
im sorry.
i have enough of all the drama and crap that i need to carry on my shoulder.
i don't know why must i feel so worry about you.
its like it came on its own.
worry without reasons.
so let me find out on my own.
what that's feelings means?
PS: i will be never complete without you.
Labels: Bubble Gum
