Wednesday, March 25, 2009 { 4:34 AM }


Hello Earthlink!
i juz got back home lepaking wit my bel's..
sorry ler guys.. i always sleep when there's always lepak. im juz used 2 lepak till morning la aites. den im tired somemore. many things i need 2 finish up. school stuff,training and personal time. i wil tried my best not 2 sleep aites. HAHAHHA!
Today after training. Go to redhill and meet my idol narly. laugh out loud and she put a smile on my face. Thanks you Bek Bek!

i have been SINGLE for 1 month.
feeling so strong without her.
and i don't really need her by myside again.
What is the past, i don't wanna repeat it ever again.
For what she have done towards me. i just wanna thanks truly from the bottom of my heart that i do really appeciate everything that she done towards my journey with her. i might not be the same OLD firdaus that u used to think. you make me realise and understand the meaning of LOVE. im juz too speechless. So people who are waiting of me or etc. im not gonna give a damn thing to love again. i juz not into it for the time being. the pain and hurts that im most fear ,to not go through it ever again. im sorry if im getting away from you or you getting away from me. coz if you know what u did. u will know how i feel right now. Your effort of hurting me is so brillent. and the limit that u push it to me is way too much. even i myself cant forgive you for what u've did. im sorry. Maybe what i did is not the best thing. but i tried 2 make the effort that she don't wanna see me or even talk to me. i have been waiting 4 you to return back to me and apologise for what u've did. but its all goes silent. i have enough waiting. so maybe this is the best that we go separate ways as what u want it. i hope in future as time goes by. i could see u smile and laugh again right in front of my eyes again.


PS: A BIG THANKS TO QURAISHA for the break up.

Labels: Goodbye my Lover