Wednesday, February 18, 2009 { 3:25 AM }

My day is such critical today. I keep thinking of her even im doing my class test today. Just thinking if she do think about me too,or not... Hmm... its hard 4 me 2 confront her.. attuali i dun wanna meet her... but my heart force me to.. coz i badly miss her so much. even though i just meet her last night. i dun even know who this things happen. such so crucial. im sorry honey.
im waiting 4 u to text me. atlast u text me. Wohooo! out of the sudden,she thinks that im mad for what she have done. but i dun really mind,even though i do care for her. its not i dun like. but im juz worry. not i dun trust u. i hope u understand how would i feel if someone whom i do really love did that.
Who doesnt concern about they LOVE?
its not about trusting or what?
is juz the feelings of concern in relationship...
You know that i fully trust u...
if i dun trust u in the first place...
i will be confront with whoever the guy is..
but You are getting the wrong idea...
im not the type chasing over such problem coz i trust u...
its juz YOU,whom is my legal girlfriend.. Ya! its not wrong making more Friends..
but this is not the right way of making friends... there's other different steps of making friends. its not about You are in relationship or what. if YOU are FIRM enough as u prove me lately. this is not YOU. If there are Fate, that guy wont go no where.. trust me. im juz shock coz u never told me that, u've change contacts with each other. even its NOT u who asked for his number. Im not blaming u bieee...
its how u responed to that type of scene. People don't even CARE if u were Attached or not. People do CAME and GO. Life is always that way. Only God testing,How strong and truly and honesty you are towards your relationship.
What im doing is juz advising you. Whatever u did, i will always forgive u. but every forgiveness,you must learn from your mistakes. chances are all given. Forgive will always Forget. That's LIFE bieeee... im thankful,having such a Honesty Girlfriends. But Y every moves of yours are all referring to guys? Who am i? GUYS? or what? im giving you what u need.. arent that enough for u? Freedom? Fully giving perfectly. Friendship? Totally bless by me.

Its True! you are Friendly. truly Friendly. But there's a Time for friendly. Dun about 1 person.. u ruin ur entire life. i dun like it. its between YOU and ME. u cant juz think about urself. Even Every argue that we make do referring about other people. please avoid tat problem in our relationship aites.. (:
im juz trying and putting my best effort in this relationship. i secrified many things here. what i wanna focus right now is. im getting older and older each time. Grow up adults. the Main thing i need 2 focuz is YOU,Studies and people who always being there for me. supporting me is what i want. im sick and tired introducing about myself to people and keep repeat and repeat and end up, GONE. i hate making the same mistake and trusting people so easily. Sometimes,people need 2 CHEATs to live. people willing 2 do everything just to win what they want. Its either u approve it or not. Think about urself first before thinking about others. Please put a limits and guidelines for urself. Dun ever Fall and Regret for what u've done. its totally useless.

Today when out wit Zuraidi...
meet hym at redhill den off heading to Jurong Point..
looking for Bieee small sister birthday gift...
Weee~ Walk and walk around JP....
Bieee Bestfriend text me and asking me such a complicated question to reply it back..
Everything goes fine for me.. Y things happen so fast like this..
i have no one 2 talk since everyone is pushing the blame on me..
so there's only Zuraidi and Uthman...
so... i share some stuff with them.. sharing some advise.
and still the stuff cant be solve..
so i cant sit so long as my heart hurts deeper..
off i board the BUS and sit right behide...
as i see the window.. receiving bestfriend text...
my tears start to drop. Drip by Drip...
as i shout,screaming silently deep inside my heart..
coz no one could understand and hear what i feel that period of time...
i feel like giving up serious...
but deep inside me. i still LOVE her no matter what happen...
so as i chilled around her estate... waiting 4 her 2 go down under her void deck..
and sadly, she cant make it.. coz her parents is at home..
so she told me 2 called her.. as we solve things out slowly..

I juz feel like.. even we are fighting and teasing each other..
so do LOVE each other even we hate each other for real..
Coz LOVE are everything that cant be cure or easily Lost through out in life...
She Mine! and always be MINE!
she will always know that i will always LOVE her...
LOVE like no others.. Thanks for everything Bieee....
I hope we both learn from the mistake...
as time goes by.. My LOVE wont Gone as i Promise YOU

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